Hey, i like to say what's on my mind. I don't know if i'm mad or whatever because i don't think i have a feeling right now...while i'm writing this. I don't know why CERTAIN kind of people or most probably the boys would think that when a girl express her dislikes about them being too friendly with other girls, the boy would say probably that the girl is being jealous. NO!...well maybe some of the girls are but there are girls who don't and one of them is me. Yes, I expressed that to this guy or told him because he was the one who wanted to know what i feel or think about him so don't blame me. What what, i'm already off topic, sorry for that inconvenient babbling something~~~. So back to what was I going to say.

He, without thinking A LOT, says that i am jealous. There's no MAYBE or IF or WHAT IF. He just said i am jealous. From what i remembered i told him a lot of time that i am so~~oh not jealous but he insisted that i am. Believe me, i wanted to shout at him but being the nicer person of the two of us i decided there's no use. That would probably make the worst of us because i don't want to be the bad one.

So the thing is now what i feel about him i know for sure it's not Love. I'm just taking precaution. Uh sounds dangerous. :D

I told him that he's too friendly with the girls because that is not on my list what i am looking for in a guy. Why would i want a guy who i can't trust with when it involve loyalty and dedication. And from what i can see, he's not only friendly towards the other girls but he likes to go to the club and show off a lot of bare skin in front of people. I don't mind if its only with the friends but in public. Wow that's a lot to take in.
Yah, i seem very picky but don't you?

But even if  he's not what i said just now and seems fine to me still i don't think i can date him because he's just not the one. Maybe it takes a year or two or three or more i will wait for that right person and be sure that he's the one i would marry and have child with. I just want to be sure to marry that one who will be with me for a long time.

For the guy who said that im jealous, if you read this, that's the truth. What you think about me when i dont reply your messages or answer your call is true. I am avoiding you. I was hoping that you will move on. Maybe you just want to be friends but i don't think i can because the truth is i'm sick of being what i am not. And once again, there is no jealous involve.


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